Doing Time
I feel like I'm doing time. None of us did anything to deserve this. Before there was life. Now there is coping every minute of every day.

hang in there Kris, one of the best healers of emotional pain is time itself.

Thanks 007. I've been on the chain gang eight months, now. How does anyone feel about how time affects adjustment to the physical aspects of ENS--the sucking dry gulch of a nose, the constant tending it, the breathlessness, the sleep disturbance, the resulting fatigue and depression? I find that there are days when I can cope successfully. Then stress or lack or sleep or intensified symtpoms intervene. That's when it becomes apparent to me that I can't do life anymore AND cope with ENS. All I can do is cope with ENS. Does that get better with time?

I understand
Hi Kris I truly understand you, You do feel like your in a prison about the only thing I'm good at anymore is Praying for other's in pain I have had many surgery 2 reconstructive jaw surgery's and 2 low spinal surgery and many other surgery's I have to say I made it through all of them the only one I call my Nightmare surgery is the Sinus I thought it would have been the easy one to recover form I found out the hard way and here I' am ENS, for life, I know I have to forgive the Doctor or I will never get on with getting Well. so long story short I turned to my Faith . I do Understand pain in the face it is more than I can take by my self. my prayers get me through everyday I said one for you today . if you have a special request let me know music helps me a lot take care. God Bless Sharon

Sharon, Thank you for your prayers. I will include you in mine as well. I have had few surgeries in my life. I am 56. I had an appendectomy when I was 12, and over four decades, 3 or 4 more minor surgeries. I just never imagined that a doctor would do this to a patient. I dealt with a very painful ovarian cyst for 10 years before a doctor even suggested surgery. It was mentioned, but not suggested. I have used holistic medicine all of my adult life. I went for this surgery only because I was ill with another physical condition and couldn’t think well. I was seeing the doctor for tinnitus. I know I was exploited. What he did was not an accident or bad judgment. The doctors I have seen nearly swallow their teeth when they read the surgery report—before they put on their “professional” faces. I do believe I have to forgive him, but it’s like trying to jump over the Grand Canyon. I know the forgiveness is not because he deserves it because he doesn’t. May you be blessed, and I know you are, kris