Having Some Bad Days
I dont usually post on here too much...although I do read the forum often just to get through some days when I am trying to feel better. It has been almost 7 years now since my surgery. Every day my feelings, actions, and plans revolve around my nose. It has taken over my life. I found out recently that I am pregnant and will be getting married too. So good things in life are happening, and yet I am having severe anxiety now about how I will raise a child (or children) with the constant nose maintenance that monoplizes a lot of my time. If I dont irrigate at least three times a day I cant breath, can barely swallow, let alone exercise. I try and have faith that whatever God does exist, that this God had or has a point in putting this obstacle in my life. I will most likely require another surgery to correct my septum problems. I know nothing can be done to replace the damage that already exists, but I am hoping the surgery can make my life at least a little more tolerable. This condition makes me feel like a freak, really. No person close to me understands it, so I really dont even try to explain it anymore. I was not even going to pursue another surgery but at this point, I just say I have nothing else to lose. Well, that was my two cents for the day. Thanks for listening.

Isnt that the worst part. Having this condition is awful enough but having even some of the nicest most open minded people thinking it cant be that bad when it really is. It's sad when even medical professionals cant exercise good critical thinking when it comes to something they dont understand (or dont want to). Thank God for people like houser it only takes a few to eventually change the minds of the many.

I am also getting married and I too worry about possibly raising a child someday with my nose problems. As far as other people not htinking you're condition is that bad, I think the thing to do is to try not to complain too much but to keep on them periodically when things are at their worst. I think that other people can relate better if they think your problems come and go, but if you compalin all the time they tune you out. Also, i know with my support circle, if i complain too much they look at me like "well do something then if its bothering you! Get allergey -*test*-('")ed, try a few more ENTs, if its really bothering you that much go to cleveland!" Kind of a "shut up and do something, we're all here for you but do somehting and stop whining" attitude. I have to admit I dont often have an answer for that.

I am engaged to get married, however, this medical issue has put alot of strain on our relationship. I'll be honest, since I have had ENS I have not been able to make clear decisions, the way I used to before ENS. So, I am not sure I will marry. My ENS has caused a serious voice strain issue, and that makes me nervous about raising children too!!!! PS - I haven't posted this yet, but, 1 week ago I had another Houser implant done. I wasn't going to report this for about 2 months until I healed pretty well. But, I am praying this implant helps me more than the last one. It is still too soon to tell, but I'll let everyone know eventually. I am staying positive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!